<![CDATA[SHE kissed her fears goodbye + - Blog]]>Thu, 03 Dec 2015 19:40:36 -0800Weebly<![CDATA[Current Distractions´╗┐,Reaching out for help. No one can hear me, no one can help. My thoughts,my prayers, cutting off all of my hair. Getting caught up in a deep, long stare. No one can help me except for my self,but I'd have to admit that I do need...]]>Wed, 02 Dec 2015 19:35:41 GMThttp://itsallperfect.weebly.com/blog/current-distractions-reaching-out-for-help-no-one-can-hear-me-no-one-can-help-my-thoughts-my-prayers-cutting-off-all-of-my-hair-getting-caught-up-in-a-deep-long-stare-no-one-can-help-me-except-for-my-self-but-id-have-to-admit-that-i-do-need
“The plain fact is that if you don't have a problem, you create one. If you don't have a problem you don't feel that you are living.”
― U.G. Krishnamurti, No Way Out

A letter I wrote to Spiritual Emergency Network.

I am an avid participant of Network Chiropractic Care and have bumped up against a pattern that I can NOT let go of. I have been getting this work done for about 2 1/2 years now, but had to change practitioners because of my Mother having words with the woman who I was going to. Possibly the Universe wanted me to move on, but the woman that I am seeing now brings me to places that I have never been before, and quite frankly do not want to be experiencing sometimes. I have had 'manic episodes' where I have not slept for days, just to try and save my own life. I do not have a job, and am stuck in the comfort of 'suffering' instead of moving forward.

In February of 2015, I lost my job due to my anxiety. I was going to school to be a Health Coach, which I have completed, but allowed it to consume my life. I was also, at the time getting body work done two times a week, not socializing, or eating correctly. My life was completely out of balance and obviously, due to cause and effect, I lost everything.

I feel as though this is the perfect time for me to heal myself through the Network Chiropractic care, travel and put myself and my life back together. I want to find a practitioner that is a better fit for me, a new place to live, and quite possibly start my own business. But with all of these gifts that God has given me, and not doing anything with them, my energy is being scattered all over the place. 

I have had experiences where light is literally pouring out and into my body. I have been in places I have never been before and I feel as though my past lives are being released. I am also doing very deep healing from trauma in this life and others. I was raped when I was 8, but in a past life I was a slave and had to do whatever my master was telling me to do. This is now being re-created in this life and I honestly, do not know what else to do but listen to what my higher self is telling me to do. It is really scary because sometimes I feel as though I can not get grounded into this life and continue to live in a past one, releasing karma that can fucking wait until I am ready. It is not needed for me to go there. 

It is hard for me to differentiate the past and the present and when to stay present. I had a week where I was only living in the spiritual realm and could not get in touch with reality unless I ate food that was really really bad for me. (Wendy's) I have seen my past life literally flash right in front of me and can have an orgasm without touching myself just by moving the energy down into my body. Sorry to be so graphic, but I felt as though I needed to share. Doing readings for people helps me to stay grounded ALOT, but I also feel as though I am being guided to disconnect from the internet and get a cell phone that does not have access to Facebook. I am being asked to only use and trust my own intuition, and to not even use a GPS when traveling. I want a map. I am using the library as a source of reality, because it is needed in my business and I do want to stay connected to others. 

With that being said, I need help. I am scared. My life is a mess. I know it is going to take me 6-8 months to get it together. And as hard as it is, I have to change, and take charge of my own life. I am a magnificent healer with many, many gifts..I just do not know what to do with them or how to get out of my self-destructive ways. I do not feel as though it is time for me to start my own business due to my self-destructive behaviors. I could be good one week, and horrible the next. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar disorder, and am on medication, but do not wish to be on it anymore. 

I live in South Jersey, just 30 minutes from Philadelphia. So if there are any practitioners that you know that could help and support me, I would greatly appreciate it.

Thank You, and Namaste.
Lauren Elizabeth Myers
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<![CDATA[Make Self Care Your New Health Care]]>Sat, 21 Jun 2014 15:43:06 GMThttp://itsallperfect.weebly.com/blog/make-self-care-your-new-health-careTell me, I want to know. How do you relax after a long day at work? 

I was super busy at work today, which I am very grateful for, but something told me to come home instead of going to the gym like I usually do on a Friday night. Sweet life, I know ;] Little did I know, that I was going to come home to find myself engulfed in the aroma of lavender writing to you guys :) By the way, if I drop this iPod into this bathwater, I'm screwed. 

Typically, you would come home and drink a glass of wine right? Or a have a few beers? It's the weekend,so why not? But how about on a Tuesday...or a Wednesday....? Now I'm not saying that there is anything wrong with having a glass of wine, but as for me, I don't touch it because apparently, my body just doesn't believe in only one glass. Now don't get me wrong there was totally a time where I did all that as well, and at some times, still wish I did. But, I'm just here to encourage you to take a step in the right direction and try another way. There is more than one way to relax without harming your body with harsh chemicals that could very well be the stemming cause of your dis-ease. 
I love you, and I care for you. That is why I am here. To invite others to think twice before making decisions about their health. It is time that we as a nation take matters into our own hands. Health care is entirely way too expensive, and we as a country deserve so much more! How does this not fire you up inside? Do you know what the government puts into your food, just so they can have control of us?! And what do you think happens next...? We as a whole become sick,addicted,and stuck in this vicious cycle of being miserable,broke and stressed out having to pay for expensive ass health care! Don't let the government have control of you, take action and take a stand! Be an advocate of your own health! You have a voice! Now let it be heard!
I invite you to let me be the bridge to help you cross over to your new life:) Healthy living starts today! Sign up today for your initial breakthrough session with me. First person to sign up for my 6 month program wins a FREE NUTRIBULLET! Why? because I CARE about your sexy self 😁 Now come on and hang out with me, because well, why not?!

Sincerely, 
Lauren Elizabeth 💜
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<![CDATA[Hormones, can't live with em, can't live without em.]]>Tue, 03 Jun 2014 18:10:19 GMThttp://itsallperfect.weebly.com/blog/hormones-cant-live-with-em-cant-live-without-emI know I may have a while until this happens, but staying positive is so important for me while all of my friends around me are getting married and having babies. Sometimes my ego just can't help but take me down. All these negative thoughts flood in about how I am so 'alone' and how it is going to be this way FOREVER. A bit dramatic, I know. But thats who I am. I should totally get into improv. Now don't get me wrong, I am definitely basking in their happiness FOR SURE. But sometimes I can't help but feel like there is something missing in my life, which is definitely not the case at all, I have my computer. 

When feelings like these arise, I know it is time to get to work! As Yogi Bhajan once said "If you don't go within you go without" and I find it extremely important to go within. I like to ask myself questions like, what am I grateful for? What is it that is really bothering me here? Or, what is one thing I have to look forward to? As you begin to focus on the positive, the levels of Serotonin in the brain become triggered. In turn, stress levels are reduced and good feelings are produced. Another thing I like to do to increase my levels of Oxytocin, (the love hormone) is to write a letter to someone whom I am grateful for, and explain to them all that they have done for me. It is also fun to mail the letter and decorate the envelope. Could you imagine getting a letter in the mail from someone telling you how much they love and appreciate you?! How awesome would that be!
Just like everyone else in the world, I am insecure at times and I definitely experience loneliness. I have come to understand that feelings are only temporary and the key ingredient here is to not act upon them by downloading the latest dating app. Not to say I haven't done this, but I think that feeling my way through these feelings can be way more effective. So for anyone out there who is feeling lonely or scared, know that your prince charming is totally on the way. He just needs to learn a few things first, just like we do. But until then bon voyage ladies! 

Sat Nam <3
Pavandev
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<![CDATA[Tue, Apr 29, 2014]]>Tue, 29 Apr 2014 12:51:11 GMThttp://itsallperfect.weebly.com/blog/tue-apr-29-2014

There's no secret here, I am hands down one of the BEST emotional eaters I have ever met. At a very young age, I distinctly remember when I first started to fill the "void". Any time I felt upset or alone after my father left his physical form, I would quickly turn to food. This pattern stuck to me like glue(as well as my hips), and still continues to haunt me to this day.

The awareness of my pattern and the willingness to change is my grace. Throughout my 30 day journey of "no emotional eating"(PMS hasn't hit yet so bare with me),I am in the process of filling up on self-love by reaching inward for the comfort I have always been longing for. If this isn't something we learn as children, the patterns of self loathing, fear & judgement can carry on throughout a lifetime. But the good news is, you have the power to change it!

In today's society, self love isn't promoted anymore than tinder. Unfortunately, we have to take matters into our own hands and start asking questions. Self love doesn't necessarily have to come from an egotistical place. Loving yourself can be expressed through a massage, a hot bath, or even setting healthy boundaries with others. My journey of self love has not been easy, but it is definetly worth it. For nearly a decade I was looking outside of myself for love & someone to validate who I was. Little did I know I was going to be the first one to do that.

So here we go! :]

13 WAYS TO LOVE YOURSELF WITH NO EXCUSES ::

1. Set healthy boundaries, say no when needed say yes when you mean it.

2. Take an Epsom salt bath with lavander oil.

3. Listen to your body, it always knows what it's talking about.

4. Go for a walk, it's nice outside.

5. Eat healthy foods, you'll live longer.

6. Drink water!

7. Forgive yourself. Every moment is a new moment you can start over and begin again.

8. Trust your intuition.

9. Keep healthy relationships....(HUGE)

10. Set time aside atleast once a week just for you....quality "me" time.

11. Get a massage.

12. Take yourself on a date...this one is my favorite :]

And last but NOT least...

13....Accept yourself for who you are in this moment, you are doing the best you can with what you know.

i love you.

Lauren XO

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<![CDATA[When the LIGHT triumphs the FEAR ]]>Sun, 13 Apr 2014 16:19:11 GMThttp://itsallperfect.weebly.com/blog/allow-the-light-to-triumph-thefearPicture

Ever since my blog got featured on TheFirstClassLifestyle.com, I totally freaked out. I guess I had what you would call writers block.I couldn’t write anymore, I judged every word that I wrote down, and was having a huge fear of what other people were going to think of me. I didn’t want to write anymore, fear paralyzed my soul.

But all of that changed today when I was doing a health history for my current enrollment at the Institute of Integrative Nutrition. For those of you that do not know, a health history is just like filling out the paperwork you scribble on at the doctors office, yet more in depth, fun and exciting. If you are interested in doing one with me, let me know!!! I would love to work with you! Nice plug I must say…anyway…a fellow peer of mine gave me great advice, she said to think about my target audience and tell myself that they are waiting to hear what I have to say. Her advice surely was golden, here I am writing again with my heart full of love. Thank you universe!

My original intention on starting a blog was to help heal others in any way that I can, and share some day to day experiences. However, after getting featured on TheFirstClassLifestyle.com, my intention became much larger, and so did my ego. It wasn’t about we anymore, it was more about me. How can I get more followers…? What can I do to make this happen…? OMG, I want to be famous and write for the newspaper. I totally lost my focus, my creative flow & even myself a little bit. I became enveloped in complete bullshit.

After being in so many circumstances where I was trying to control the outcome of a situation, I am finally learning to use the word surrender. I am beginning to believe that there is someone or something out there who just has to be working on my behalf. It is so much more relaxing to trust that everything is already taken care of and there is a bigger plan than I have. At least that’s what I’m working towards, cause apparently the universe and I have two totally different events in mind.
Remember, the universe wants us to play big. Believe in your dreams, because I am.
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<![CDATA[Thu, Mar 13, 2014]]>Thu, 13 Mar 2014 16:40:48 GMThttp://itsallperfect.weebly.com/blog/spiritjunkie-style

WARNING :: side effects may cause enlightenment ::

In the society that we live in today, "feeling" is generally not accepted by any means. Stomach hurts? Can't breathe? Take a pill. Depressed? Here's another pill. Oh,and while your at it,remember-there is a slight risk of heart disease and decreased sex drive. Yea! Just what the doctor ordered. But no worries, we'll supply you with another drug for that one.

Welcome to western medicine.

In my opinion,far too many people are prescribed to anxiety / depression medication. I, was one of them. Until I decided that I was tired of feeling numb every day.

Throughout this past year of getting regular body work done (reiki,massage,pedicures,any kind of self-love will do) my anxiety has lessened and my head has become more clear. Have I chosen to stay on these drugs, I would have never known what it was like to go through the range of emotions we are suppose to feel throughout our lifetime. I am now learning how to take the good feelings with the bad.

Sorry, thought I'd add a little humor in there.


Anxiety attack tip #1
Breathe. Take in a deep breath from the bottom of your coccyx and pull it alllllll the way up as far as you can. Sometimes my breath gets stuck and will not move above my belly button.  Just relax and keep on breathing . 

Anxiety attack tip #2
Dance! Put on your favorite song and get your body moving! I have a playlist on you tube that I have created from Shazzam ;). It is my absolute favorite thing to do! I love music!

Anxiety attack tip #3
Realize that you are experiencing an anxiety attack. I know this may sound silly, but as soon as I realize what is going on in my body, I become aware. Awareness is the most powerful step to creating change.

Anxiety attack tip #4:
Go to the gym! I swear the gym is like a magic pill for me. Every time I leave there my energy is flowing and my mind is clear. Let's get those endorphins movin! ;]

Anxiety attack tip #5:
Take a cold shower!
Cold showers shock your nervous system and free up space for the energy to move! [A warm shower will work too, but I'm in it for the long haul]

& last but not least --
Call your mom, call a family member, call someone who loves you. Out your feelings and be vulnerable.


"When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace..."

love, light, & blessings

Lauren

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<![CDATA[Whoever knew you could have a spiritual healing experience in kickboxing?]]>Tue, 04 Mar 2014 20:25:09 GMThttp://itsallperfect.weebly.com/blog/whoever-knew-you-could-have-a-spiritual-healing-experience-in-kickboxing

For about 6 months now I have been taking kickboxing up at 700 fitness in Sewell, and every time I get in front of that bag it's a war between me and the dragon. AKA my ego mind. I battle with tears almost streaming down my face because I can not get the hits right, to extreme excitement when I see that my kicks have improved. Oh, and did I mention the infamous "everyone else is better than me, I suck...why can't I get this right, look at her arms they are ao much more sculpted than mine"...anyway, you get the point. Feelings of being less than are just the egos trick to hiding how magnificent you really are.

Today was different. Today I chose to love myself instead. As soon as I got out of my head and into my heart, all of my punches flowed and things started to get a lot easier. Letting go of having to be "perfect" (the total death of me) is so much more fun! I started to dance while I was punching and went to the beat of the music. So why don't you just let it go and dance to the music in your head? I know I'm crazy, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I triple dog dare you to dive deep into your crazy and see what you can find :]

Life is just a game, full of experiences and lessons. Are you ready to be the student?

love&light

Lauren

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